Monday, May 23, 2005

What are Friends for?

What are friends for?

I had a lot of friends. Simply in uni... the closer girl friends I had are Cat, Yv, Joo, Min, Meiling at the moment.. of cos, I had more counts of it..


Cat is someone who enjoys attention, and when the attention was suddenly not available, she will get uneasy. Many may take people for granted, but in her case, she might take people's attention for granted. Weird it may sound, but it's quite true till now, I think.

She is also someone who can be so deeply obsessed with anything that she enjoyed/loved, that she never get tired out of it. Her loves/raves at the moment, weekly routine - Mambo@Zouk on Wednesdays, mahjong@Adrian's place on Fridays, Double O aka Er Tong @ Mohd Sultan on Saturdays... There was a time, we had bitching sessions @ Town on Thursdays, when we always don't know which part of town we are going to while we already started travelling in the MRT. But somehow stopped cos my company has so-called "Sports Day" on Thursdays. Sometimes, it just amazed me how happy she can be, living a routinal life. For me, I probably will start to break free by the end of the 3rd or 4th week of routines.


Yv? I had much more to say about her. Will be putting her the last on the list.


Joo is a little girl who has just hit early 20 not too long ago... She is like small adult, trying to speak like one... It probably pass in front of her co-hord.. But in the eyes of us, the older generations, she still has much room to grow up.. haha.. Quoted from someone who said it quite recently (maybe not exact words, but the meaning is there), "Many of us, till a certain age, may always think that we had matured, but in a few years' time, when we looked back, we probably not as matured as what we may have felt in the past." My theory, "One who never admit he/she is mature enough, will always gain and learn more things to UP the mature level." Hmm.. Seems like me starting to float away my thoughts about her to stuff about being mature?! Hehe..

Knowing her for nearly a year, she is like my little sister, never grow up... Totally obsessed her basketball... Erm.. Life in her jc council was her happy and quite satisfied part of her life, or at least that was what I think... =P


Min is always been a crazy and cheerful girl... Also like my little sis... I had just spent a night over her place last night... After knowing her for 3 years, I just knew that her place was like 5 bus stops away from mine. I'm glad that she had changed... Definitely for the better... Living life in her own way, enjoying the sun at Sentosa, at the moment. I could never be like someone like her, going out all the way and have fun... for I am too self-conscious, something that not many may notice. The past definitely had caused certain level of influence to her life, but as what I always say, "Be appreciative of what had happened, may it be happy or sad, as they made up of what you are now".

A crazy girl with an innocent heart... Never let anything kills the innocence in you.. Life has it practical side, but it also has its beautiful and unreal side... It all lies on the hands of all of us, humans. There's nothing impossible, though sometimes there's the limits, do challenge the limits if possible. *winkz*


Meiling is also another little sis. It seems like I have my little sis as my closer friends. *tsk tsk* A-hem.. Back to topic.. A girl that needs to find confidence in herself and perhaps, a direction in life. We seemed to drifted quite apart ever since we had our IA.. Really got no clue of how is she doing now.. But from my impression, currently, she's probably enjoying attention that a single and available lady will want... Sometimes, I wonder if she's aware of what she really wants..

In life, there's always a point of time, that you would just choose to break free of the current status, and experience a different life.. At the end of the day, just make sure that you are living a life you really want.


Yv is a friend that I hate to admit... Probably the lousiest friend I had. From her breakup with the previous beau a few years ago, to each and every slightest encounter of any closer guy friends she had, to every little thing, like accompanying her to her dean to appeal, lending her panties on a junk boat when she soaked hers upon her "auntie's" visit, lending my listening ear to her over the phone at late nights, walking around aimlessly once at holland v and once in campus... Now... I wonder is she a friend that I should just simply give up.

She's someone who has very distinct double standards. She can borrow somebody's stuff and not return.. but her friends, CANNOT don't return her things on time. In crowded places, everyone in front of her are inconsiderate and blocking her path, and everyone she blocked and tried to squeeze their ways past her, are also inconsiderate; all in all, she was the truly inconsiderate and selfish soul, who is intolerant of anything but herself.

She's someone who always like to complicate simple things and simplify complicated things. Simple conversation with a guy she kind of like >> She said she might be going to hongkong or some place (I can't be bothered to rem about details). He asked who she was going with. She may think that he was eager to know who, and probably he seemed concerned. When she told me some things like this, I was like.. huh? Anyone can ask such things.
Simplifying complicated things, is when some guys that probably had little crush on her, she simply unaware and unfeeling towards those people, treating them as per normal, and leading them on. Yes, she loves to lead people on, may it be knowingly or unknowingly, no matter how hard people around her warned her or hinted to her..

She's someone that you shouldn't say your problems to. The conversation would end up to be her talking about his and her progress, and his and her guessing games. Friday, she went out with him. Late night, she sms me saying,"Oh no.. The more I go out with him, the more I like him." Saturday, she msn me that she was not feeling good, need to come out and talk. Ok. It would be supper then. I went out with min to town. After that, 10pm, I asked if she wanted to go chomp chomp at the moment. She said she would be meeting him up for a moment, and later in the night, he will be off to meet his friends, and she meet me. Then I waited at min's place. The wait, lasted until midnight, when I got alittle tired and impatient. Called a few times, and she didn't picked up. Then she said it was silent mode. Lousy reason. If it's a real reason, too bad. I don't buy that. End up, he was still with her. Is there someone on this world that can be more temperamental from her. Last night, happy like mad. Morning, super confused and moody. Tonight, out with him again. WTF is she thinking? She's been like that since I know her in June 2002. She hadn't changed for the better for she was stubborn to change. She would claim that that was her, cannot change one. I'm tired totally. She is the most exhausting friend I've got. I really wonder my patience for her had been used up.


No matter how much disappointment or unhappiness a friend may give, I realised that I will never give up on my friends. This is my strongest point, yet my weakest too. But this time round, it's the first time I felt so much that there is really people not worth of my friendship. Not worth of my time, not worth of my concern, not worth it.. Not worthy at all..

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