Monday, July 10, 2006

It's quite a weird thing..

Qi's MSN nick is "Missing someone is your heart's way of reminding you that you love them"
Is it true? Even if it's not true, the sentence sounded sweet...


I find it quite weird...
I began to miss the voice right after hanging up the phone..
But other than just wanting to hear the voice again..
I can't find other reason that I want to call..


About holding a conversation/phonecalls...
I worry for holding on the phone and end up not talking..
Else, I worry that I start to rattle on, just for the sake of talking, and get the other person pissed...
Alot of little habits, may it good or bad, had been accumulated since that fateful relationship..
I remembered vaguely that talking too much, and being said as nonsense..
I remembered vaguely that he said that I walked like a guy? Can't I walk like a girl? or sth liddat...
I remembered vaguely that I was being snapped at, when I made him and the parents in the car waiting at my void deck, for me to go downstairs.. From then, I always be early and wait for drivers/chaffeurs...


It's so weird that the this blog entry started cos I was missing someone's voice..
And I start talking about memories, that totally not related to the person I missed..
Anyway.. for this someone..
I hardly call him, I hardly ask him out.. I hardly initiate anything...
Cos I have lotsa assumptions..
Assumed that he is always busy.. Don't wish to call at the wrong time and be a pest..
Assumed that he is always busy.. He will never be free at the time I want to go out..

But I am always sure that, I'm free for most of the time he ask me out..
Even if I'm not free, I will rearrange my schedule..
Though last Tuesday I felt ARGH and felt "complain-ive" that my pre-planned Tuesday have to be rescheduled due to the busy guy..
And end up, the day was more of running around with him, though my main aim was just to go to the travel agency and get the air tickets..
The amusing part was 1 MSN msg he sent.. roughly it meant like this... that he will be busy running around, and that I won't be able to tag along for the whole day..
Erh.. Did I say.. I want to tag along to other places or what?! Oh well.. Doesn't matter..
Cos I can't go back to school and execute my pre-planned Tuesday..
Actually, till now, the things I wanted to do during the Tuesday had yet to be done..
I really wished to go back school and get it done..

Well.. Didn't sound good huh?!
Most of my jie-meis sure reprimand me and say that I shouldn't make myself too available, and end up be taken for granted..
Well.. That's me.. I'm lousy at those "playing-hard-to-get" games...


Hmm..
For the first time, I felt that I didn't really like to communicate via MSN or SMS..
I really prefer talking over the phone or even meeting up...
Yes.. I agree that I had changed quite alot in this semester...
But I often didn't throw back the question..
Did you notice if you had changed? For the better or the worse?
I'm really not too sure if you had changed.. Have you?! In what way?!

sugary sweet savouring @ 1:09 AM |



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