Day One.. Happy Lunar New Year..

Dearest Bloggie,

On this Day One of CNY, 5+pm..
I guess most of the people are still out, busying visiting...
I'm sooooo envious of those who are still busy, running around to visit relatives.. I love the fun..
For every year's Day One, I only go to 3 houses.

One, my old grandma..
All alone in the house with the maid..
I can't help it, but to feel a tinge of sadness, looking at her..
Her one and only mobile hand shook mine..
Her eyes looked at me today..
For a moment, I had a feeling that, she probably couldn't recognise me..
If I were her, I would fear that my family had forgotten all about me..
Well.. probably I wouldn't be able to get my family of my own in the first place..

Busy is probably the most convenient reason, yet the most
unconvincing reason to tell to anyone, especially to your family.

Two, the head branch of the Ng family..
A place whereby my grandma passed away in 2005.
A place whereby 4 of my unwed aunties stayed under one roof..
Yes, and this is our headquarters..
By the time we reached headquarters..
Many had left..
Everyone's attention was mainly on my baby nephew..
Which is not too bad..

Don't come and ask me about job and the legendary Edmund Bor Mei You..
NO! There isn't!!!
And my heart is only fixed on that one person at a time..
Unless something drastic happen, I will never stop to give my heart and everything to him..
Unbelievable that this comes from a very rational Susan?
Well.. Rational Susan believes in giving 100% in relationship..
Unless she had experienced great displeasure, disappointment, and intense heartache..
Or.. anything that spells the total end..
Else I'll willingly be led on by him.. on.. and on...
Tell me about it, I probably sound like an insane super glue..
But I'm definitely one lovable and desirable super glue..


There's a forever knot in this Ng family..
The knot is definitely between our branch, and the branch where my 'cousin-brother' is in..
I guess the lawyer letter from them about claiming ADOPTION does it all..
My dad was totally unhappy that he didn't give him red packet there..
Cos my 'cousin-brother' didn't even greet him.. let alone CNY wishes..
And what can I say, we didn't even spoken a word to each other at all..
A knot that probably would never untie...


The THIRD place will be the place I loved to be at anytime of the year!!!
My Er4-Yi2's place!!!
I can't wait to be there..
Just that my 'cousin-brother' is here in my house..
For the annual routinal house visit..
Oh well.. Every year, I just can't wait for them to leave..
And get all prepared to fly over to my Er Yi's place!! Woohoo!!
So exciting!!!

And guess what..
THEY HAD JUST LEFT!!
WOOHOO!!!

Dearest bloggie..
Gotta get prepared and leave for my Er Yi's place now...!!
Happy New Year!!
Wang4 Wang4 Wang4!!!!

Hugs and kisses
Susie

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