Saturday, February 24, 2007

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Protege

Ah Lik - Daniel Wu, Ah Quin - Andy Lau

I was probably quite amazed by Ah Lik's determination in being an undercover..
Or should I say, amazed by those undercovers, and those retired ones who provided materials for this script to be written. At the end of their lives, they were probably never been recognised as cops. They themselves probably couldn't relate themselves being the uniformed police, after all these years of undercover..

In the show.. For a moment..
I was really quite absorbed into the role of Ah Lik...
I could so much sympathise the lady, Jane (Zhang Jingchu) who got addicted to heroin..
(By the way, Zhang Jingchu looks really pretty, despite her pale heroin-addict look..)

When Ah Quin took Ah Lik around in Thailand...
Showing him the ropes.. The statistics of the illegal drugs market was pretty interesting though.. It's definitely some statistics you can't get off the net...
Showing him the people at the poppy fields.. The people working at the fields are earning peanuts, comparing how worthy the things they harvest could earn them..

Sometimes I felt shaken.. Like what Ah Quin said..
"He didn't force those people to take drugs. It's a business thing. When there's demand, there will be a supply. If there's no people taking drugs, they can't make business. Who asked them to take drugs? It's not the supplier....."
I felt shaken if I'm Ah Lik...
For a moment, I would believe, yes. It's really just a world of business. If I don't do this business, someone else will do. And I don't force these drug addicts to get addicted.. It's all due to personal determination.. If you aren't determined, and get empowered by drugs.. It's not easy, I could say.. It's damn, tmd, freaking hard to get out of drugs. I would be brainwashed, that all these addicts don't deserved our pity, we should just carry on and earn our big bucks.

But what was thousand times or even zillion times worse than Ah Quin's reasoning...
The death of that heroin addict lady, Jane....
The scene of her having her last jab injected via her neck...
Afterwhich, she started having difficulties breathing... Eyes turned blank..
Whole body shiver.. squirm... and started to get into fits...
And eventually... she died.. her muscles all tensed up...
Her body in a totally weird shape/angle...

The scene where Ah Lik found her dead after a day or a few days was even worse...
Eyes were wide opened...
Blood was all over from her mouth....
Rats were all crawling over her dead body..
It was totally traumatising...
She definitely got Ah Lik determined, to convict Ah Quin of his crimes..
It's a difficult task, to convict someone, who trusted you so much..
It's really very difficult.. It felt like betrayal, on the personal basis..

Well...
Jane probably had seen death coming.. She wanted to die..
When she asked Louis Koo to give her that deadly jab at the neck..
She said it was more shiok.. But she didn't look as though she meant it..
She had planned her own death..
She had planned to let Ah Lik to be her daughter's guardian..
She tore a piece of paper from her daughter's exercise book that day, wrote a letter to assign him as the guardian, signed against it, and dropped it at his mailbox.
Her death is probably a relief for her.

Come to think of it..
If I was Ah Lik...

And if I were really very capable of doing all transactions and stuffs without the police help...
I probably wouldn't mind taking over Ah Quin's business...
But well.. such a business definitely earn you lots of retribution...
Look at Ah Quin's kids..
One terribly tomboy.. and the other, borned with VSD..
Who knows for the unborn...
Anyway.. I can't do anything illegal for nuts...
I mean I can't do anything illegal at all.. Cos Guilt will just be written all over my face..

At the scene where Ah Quin cut his own throat..
If I were Ah Lik.. I would also let him die instead of facing the sentence...
Considering Ah Lik had actually destroyed his pre-planned peaceful life after retirement..
Death is an easier way out for Ah Quin.. Easier for his family to live a normal life..
The grieve of his death would definitely be more intense than the truth of what crime he does..

Something Ah Quin said to Ah Lik, after Ah Quin fully trusted Ah Lik..
8 storeys high..
A drug trafficker would jump from that height..
A police.. never..
Probably he never knew.. that an undercover would actually do it..

The other gruesome scene was how a police hand got hammered off his hand, while trying to reach from a doorhole, to unlock the door from inside.. It was so ouch... Nightmare..


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Driving

Went for my driving today..
Time flies..
It's been a month since I last drove..
Today's lesson was with the Malay guy whom I first and last met.
He's really a funny guy..
Taking my mind off my terrible fever and infected throat and blocked nose, and ear..

The first funny thing of the day..
Happened even before my lesson starts..
It was a scene in the circuit's crank course...
I was amazed at how the private learner performed such a stun!
She mount the curb... And vroom... Into the drain!!
Not the whole car..
But with the front right wheel hanging in the air above the drain..
Well... I wasn't that lucky to see how it happened..
But I was there to see, 4 guys standing around that corner of the car..
Trying to lift the car out of the drain...
There's one lady standing outside looking lost..
So I supposed she's the driver who caused all this that happened..

When I told my Malay instructor about it..
He also laughed in amaze, and purposely asked me to drive round it..
So he could actually visualise how it looked like just now..
His conclusion was.. the instructor was probably asleep too..
He could have jammed brake and stopped all these from happening..

This Malay instructor is so irritatingly disturbing..
Wana place bet on a can of coke that I would mount curb to cause immediate failure..
Or make a GRAVE mistake or whatever..
Always trying to give me wrong instructions, like..
Turn left, where the sign says NO LEFT TURN!
Asking me to straighten the car while vertical parking.. WHEN THE CAR IS TOTALLY NOT STRAIGHTEN YET!
Make me do twice E-brake some more!
I realised my E-brake damn power siah..
Not only that Malay in my car got shocked..
The people standing at the driving centre also all turned and stared at my car..
Well.. They could only see my smiley and all-confidence look in my face..
Yes. I'm VERY alert!

When we went out on the road..
He started to ask if I had car at home..
Erh... I guess he had the idea that I always been in a car.. probably a reckless car..
Henceforth, my reckless style of driving too..
Come on lah.. My family, don't own car.. We only rent car.. Like my dad's taxi?! hehe...
Ok.. So who can explain my reckless driving...
I guess all eyes are onto my little blue teleport machine No. 269. or was it 296? oh no.. hehe..
Forget about the machine.. but.. it's the owner of it..
Mr. G..
It was probably him that got me interested in picking up driving...
I still remember what he said last year..
"Susan, when is it your turn to drive me home instead?"
Or at least drive myself home, so he could relax one corner..
My answer was.. "Well.. when I got a license..."
And that.. a determination to drive..
Cos all the while I found it no purpose, as there's no car for me to drive..
Well.. the other reason to drive is of course, it's a plus when applying for job..
But still.. the motivation to drive him around was somehow a stronger motivation..

Lastly, let me touch on one of our funny conversations of the day..
"Hey.. What type of guys do you like?"
"Huh?! Must see chemistry wah.. Not anyhow point at the road and say 'Hey handsome! I think I like you, let's get together (and f***!)' Things don't work that way siah.."
So I asked him, what did other girls answer him?
He said different girls like different types..
Body builder types.. Short ones..
Tall ones.. Big sized ones..
Skinny ones... Malay guys..
And you know who are those who like skinny guys?
Those fat girls.. Fat girls like skinny guys...
My instructor laughed, finding it to be very amusing..

When I told G about this..
He just have to pull his long sleeves and show me how skinny he is..
I just gotta give him the HMPF face..
And turn to look 45degree above eye level at the other direction with a poutz...
Then I turned back to him again and ask..
So you telling me you skinny or you trying to say I'm fat?! ARGH!!!!
Sickening idiot! HMPF! ROARR!!!

Then I was thinking to myself..
What guys have I actually been with..
Body builder type.. Errr.. checked.. got one or two liddat..
Short... Err... checked.. got at least one that I could remember...
Tall.. Err.. Whoever is more than 1.7 is good enough for me I think.. And many fall under >1.7..
Big sized.. Er... Probably I take it as plump or something like that.. Yah.. got..
Skinny type.. Err.. checked.. Someone showed me HOW skinny he was already lor... wtf...

Oh...
I'm so sorry that I missed out another last thing that we talked about..
I asked him.. Hey.. I ask you har.. What's the meaning of Butoh...?
Cos G said it was a malay word, and he know it's vulgarity, just that didn't really know what it means.. G even told me, it was somewhere along the line of fuck you..
So.. I thought I would clarify it with a Malay friend..
Haha.. He was quite shocked when I asked him that..
He think for a second or two.. Then he say.. 'You really don't know ah?'
Of course I don't know, then I ask you wah...
Then he quickly said.. 'Prick lah'...
Then I just cover his perhaps embarassment with a big.. "ORHhhhhHhhhHhH..."
But he claimed that Butoh is not a malay word!
He said it should be Hokkien or Cantonese..
Bor kor leng lei..
Cos if it's either Hokkien or Cantonese, it should be in G's dictionary of language already!
And when I told G about it.. He kept insisting it's a malay word!!
Oh come on! Someone please tell me what language it is in...?
Else I will just go around and asking guys about Butoh..
I hope they won't mistaken that I'm interested in their Butoh..
I'm not interested in strangers' butoh.. hahahaha....
*zipped up my mouth*


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Piano

I thought I could show off to Melissa today..
Show off that I learnt the remaining of that exam piece all by myself...
Like.. WTH!!!
I actually missed out quite a F# and a Bb, and played them as normal key...
And even played D instead of C!!

Aiyer......
Melissa.. Sometimes you got to treat Susan as little Susie you know..
Little compliments help A LOT!
Definitely boost my morale leh..

We were talking about short getaway holidays..
She was saying about Koh Samui...
I was like.. Oh! Nice place.. You should never miss the Full Moon Party as I did...
And yes, the air tix was expensive.. 500+...
And her friends wanted to stay in a villa some more...
So after topping up it would be like... $600++... WOAH!
But they end up.. decided to go Tioman..
Go Tioman...? I could only think of seeing stars lei...
She was asking me about Langkawi..
I had to say.. I'm so sorry, that I don't travel much..

And yah.. Koh Samui... It's better for you to backpack Thailand, and make it one of the stops..
Rather than going solely to that location only..
Koh Samui.. We just love the non-sticky beach there, don't we.. right, G?! hehe..
HEY.. WHEN ARE WE GOING ABROAD AGAIN?!
Your term break is here again, you know????
*poutz*

Towards the end of the lesson...
She showed me the ABRSM exam application form..
Yes. I'm going for the September exam..
But it's when I showed it to G.. then I realised..
Ya har.. I'm taking practical and not theory huh...
Should ask her again.....

Next, should I get a better digital piano?? Or a real piano?? *blink blink*
Where's my mum's promise to get me one upon graduation?!?! booOhoooOooO!
My baby nephew had snatched away ALL my mother's attention!!!!!!! hoho..


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Evening with G

His call came exactly when I reached Bishan MRT station..
I thought he wouldn't reach Bishan by 630 loh...
Then so weird...
So weird to go his place to bai4 nian2, without oranges and dressed in BLACK!
Walked all the way to his house...
Damn it.. it took me like 15 odd minutes to reach..
And I was perspiring like mad......
But end up auntie also not in...
So I just had to laze on the bed while waiting for him to finish his game...

This new game he's playing looks pretty interesting.. Like Tomb Raider...
I wonder how long my resistance to playing games could last...
It's been years since my days in Diablo and CM2...
My addiction to games, is never to be underestimated....
I better keep myself away......... far far away...
Even if it means to lose out fun...


Dinner at Sakae

Had our dinner at Sakae..
Didn't understand why the queue was that long..
And the weird thing was..
The queue at their counter, wanting to pay was as long as the queue outside the shop, waiting to go in..

Next thing was, the power trip in the shop...
Luckily it isn't the whole shop..
Just that the conveyor belt and their LCD screen black out...
The aiyo thing was.. I only noticed the screen black out and not the conveyor belt!
*Feel so kuku-fied*

The next stupid thing was...
Our very first order, together with our orders with our drinks - Soft Shell Crab...
Came up to be our last dish after like.. 45 minutes or so..

Lastly... We nearly got away with 3 dishes unpaid..
All becos we were sitting at the FIRST table near the door, that the waitress actually realised that she missed out the plates by the side, and got back to me to add those numbers...
Oh well..
I really don't believe in not paying.. though it's really a cheap thrill if you get away with it..
ARGH! Okay! I'm still feel sour over not being able to get away with it.. hmpf..


At the Movies...

At the entrance of the cinema..
Those movie-goers simply couldn't read the notice at the entrance..
That they are only seating those in Cinema 4 and 6 at that time!
Many just brave through the crowd, to the entrance, just to realise that they can't get in...
And they don't even want to move out of the area, and block our way..
Aiyo........................ hehehehe...
Open your eyes and look for those notices!!!

During the advertisement, before the movie starts...
The front speakers connection went down...
Many around us were worried if the movie would start without sound...
Well.. We were just patiently waiting....
It just feels like those olden days in the already demolished theatre next to Wing Tai warehouse. Days of.. watching movie halfway.. and the whole theatre got blackout...
All the movie goers jeering and throwing things in the air..
Hahahahaha.. Those were the days...
Seatings weren't as comfy as what we have now...
Probably you could still find it in the Chinatown cinemas... where they screen hum-sup show..
Where, comfort doesn't matter, so long as what was on the screen could let those hum-sup uncles rise to the occasion.. hehehe..
And yah.. we had our sound system back in time for the show!! WoooOHOooOO!

Back to the movies..
I guess G felt as disgusted when we saw the scene where Jane fell into spasms and die.
Cos I felt he cringed alittle at that scene.. tsk tsk..

We really did enjoy the show..
Something he said was quite true..
We won't even know if Andy Lau is speaking right Thai... hehe..

And weird thing was he asked me after the movies...
Which girl would you choose?
The heroin addict, or Andy Lau's wife's sister?!
I said I would choose neither of them..
In fact, I should have told him..
I would choose the little girl..
Cos the other two ladies both are adults and had a choice to choose in their lives...
Whereas the little girl, still need proper guidance and education in her growing up years..
I would choose the cute little girl...

As said in the show..
It's emptiness that brought people to drugs..
So.. Is emptiness scarier? Or drugs?
What I think is..
Drugs or any other form of negative addiction is only a short term solution to filling up emptiness.. If one ever walked out of the addiction and looked back, he/she will only realised that their previous addicted days, were nothing but blank, or even nightmares..
Emptiness is not scarier, if you think of the nightmares that follow after addiction..
Drugs and addiction aren't scarier, if you never want to walk out of it..

What's scariest, is life without an aim, a purpose..
All living things have a purpose..
The trees.. the vegetation, have the purpose of supplying oxygen...
The preys and the predators have the purpose of keeping the ecobalance..
What do we human do?
We are only here to destroy all things in nature...
We even destroy ourselves..


On the way home....
I felt like G was in a BIG HUGE rush to send me home..
Speeding along the road at alarmingly 110km/h!!
Not that I'm scared or don't trust his driving skills..
Sometimes it's the other drivers whom I don't really trust..
At such a speed, we can't afford to meet drivers who decided to change into our lane abruptly..
We wouldn't have enough time to save ourselves from disaster..

Well.. It felt so much like.. he's late for another appointment..
And yet want to see me home safely.. and that sick me should just turn in early..
It had been a fantastic evening as usual..
I had my lovely share of the as-promised Friday sayang during his Wednesday's mj session..
*easily contented*


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Home..

The moment I stepped into my house..
My mum was over the phone with my bro1.
What else? It's all about lau1 yusheng...

It's like.. what's up man?!
Isn't it sooooo freakingly hard to find time for your family to get together for yusheng?
Why is it so weird that one got to be so angry and find out who's the actual one who initiated to have yusheng this year? Do u have to blame that initiator on adding more appointments to your already busy schedule? After all.. The initiator also part of the family!!

Aren't you ashamed that, it's just on my mum's wishlist, to see all to sit together and lau yusheng? We only skipped a year. Last year we missed it.. You said it as though we never had the tradition to lau yusheng.. Yes. We never had it when we were young. But can't we just get something started to gel the family? Or probably you might think it's commercialised gimmick to lau yusheng? Why does everything gotta be calculated so clearly? Is this what family ties supposed to be? Some sorta invisible ranking system or what?

Is this my family? Is this? Being so calculative? The moment I stepped into my house.. I can't help it but to feel that little tinge of disappointment..

Waiting for the 'I'll call you later'.... but in vain..
Oh I shall just go sleep and don't hope for more..
More hopes means more disappointment..
Little hopes means very happily contented with any little surprise or happiness..

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