Wednesday, March 14, 2007

A series of updates...

A small jot-down of what happened since 5 Mar morning, the previous long update.


5 March 2006, Monday

Driving at 4.25pm. a
All shit went wrong during this final driving lesson prior to the test. Details will be included in the long long entry about the fateful driving test day. A long entry is attributed to that benchmark for having a driving licence, and not yet posted cos haven't gone through minor editing, for example, some idiotic and unpleasant conversation over sms, should I post it, or should I just not be so childish to pick up another round of fire. And probably I will wait till I received my photocard driving licence, take a photo of all stuffs, and post a final review on this chapter of my life - acquiring a driving licence, with flying colors.

Well.. Unhappy I was after that terrible lesson..
And of course, there's always someone to make my day..
A pre-planned dinner for the next day, to either celebrate, or to console me..
It's definitely a great surprise...
I love such sweet and pleasant surprises...
Though it somehow did add to the pressure to pass my driving on the next day..


6 March 2006, Tuesday

A day that I was worried for rain.
No rain meant.. I kept my cool, and was very confident in my driving..
A smooth warm-up ride, and my instructor actually fell asleep!!
For the test drive,
"It's a very pleasant ride.. " said the tester..
I walked out of the evaluation room, with my result slip..
4 demerit points for failure to signal on the road.. and that's it!
Overjoyed..
First person I shared my great news was of course my dinner date that night...
And then many others... while waiting for the stupid video screening.. and the long queue..
Dinner was at No Signboard Seafood restaurant at Geylang..
Though I should be either driving to, or driving back..
The heavy traffic suggested to me, not to do so..
Plus I wasn't too sure about the roads leading to the restaurant, cos I didn't know where it is.

After dinner, was an interesting walk through the streets of Geylang..
The very very very dark lanes with many girls standing around..
Some lanes, the girls stood as though they were lamp posts along Singapore roads..
A distance between each girl.. and guys, able to walk through the lane...
Look at their left.. and their right..
Choosing the one of their choice... and head off to somewhere.....

A nice long walk.. Not so eye-opening, but still..
The dark lanes were really quite scary..
They are really really very dark..
It's not the 'business transactions and promotions' that's happening there, that is scary..
I just simply fear of those pitch-black darkness..
Putting out your hand, and not seeing anything...
It reminds me of the time that I got blackout right after fainting in the middle of the hall..
It was then that made me realised that eye-sight was so very important to me..
Having lousy eyesight is good enough.. I never want to become blind..


7 March 2006, Wednesday

Went to NTU.
Meet up with my FYP sup. Had a great chat.
We share a common interest... Talking about heart..
He was quite cute, when he was holding back his words and said this..


Susan, you were my FYP student.
Normally when my students graduate, they will be my friends.
Do you mind, if I ask you a personal question?

I was like.. "Huh? Sure.." of course, feeling so weird..
Then he went on to ask if I had underwent a major operation.
I had a great laugh...

To all who have not known..
Let me say again.


I was borned with a hole in my heart.
Underwent a heart-bypass operation when I was only 5.
An operation that cut through the middle of my chest..
Going through my ribcage to reach my heart...
My heart was stopped when they started to cut open my heart.
My blood circulation was totally depended on this bypass machine..
I depended totally on this machine during this operation,
To provide oxygen and circulation to the other parts of my body.
The hole in my heart is located at the wall between the left and right ventricles.
I had 4 people, mainly my relatives and my relatives' friends..
Who contributed to my survival, via blood transfusion then..

Near 20 years had passed.
The yearly check-ups had been reduced to bi-yearly check-ups...
My heart.. still murmurs today.....
The hole, was sewn, but apparently..
Blood still managed to find its way through the wall via a small small hole..


All the while, I was supposedly exempted from PE, and physical fitness tests, etc..
Primary school, I struggled, and gained doctor's approval to get out of exemption.
Secondary school, my teacher had barred me again from all these activities...
Luckily she thought table tennis was nothing strenuous, and allowed me to continue..
Else.. I probably end up being deprived... I'm just too active...
Luckily my faint incident in hall didn't let them relate to my heart problem..

Anyway.. See how much I can deviate from my initial topic..
My FYP sup and I were much into talking about the operation..
Him, telling me how you can perform a non-invasive operation to the heart now.
And we talked about key-hole surgery..
And him telling me, the ways and means to mend the hole..
Not necessarily via suturing... It could be planting something into the wall..
But I doubt that was mine..
Cos having foreign material in your body requires you to take anti-coagulants for some time..
Normally, they won't plant things into a young infant..
Cos the infant still has ability and chances to grow new cells...

Ok ok.. I'm done with my heart talks and the technical things..
I really missed my FYP, didn't I...? even though I dread it at times..


Talk about FYP to Yongjun and friend..
(And to all who's doing their FYP...)

Went to Cad/Cam lab and couldn't find someone, but met Yongjun instead.
Yongjun... Still as talk cock as ever... But never fails to make you laugh with his nonsense... And guess, sitting down, and talking to him and his friend didn't really help.. I probably had gotten them more stress over their FYP instead of convincing them to relax, and believe things will go through. I've been through it.. I was somewhat stressed too.. but end up, that 20 minutes of presentation to the moderator wasn't even enough for me to finish presenting. 1 year work and you can't do a 20 minute presentation?? No way! People.. Little things you do, little problems you encounter, may be insignificant, after you had solved the problem.. However, the moderator would appreciate more, if you ever highlight to them these problems.. And most importantly, to show them you know how to identify problems, and solve the problems. That's the way they think engineers are trained to think. Identify and solve. And if you can't solve, highlight what efforts have you put in, what things and methods have you tried.. Lastly, no matter if you can solve the problem, do give lots of recommendations as to what the next person who follow on to this project could do, and make sure the recommedations make sense..


Lunch at Quad. Evening down to Orchard.
Went HMV for a while.
Realised the show Sin City was actually banned from sales in local stores. Woooo...
There at HMV, we both stared at the screen for very long..
Watching Van Helsing... It was really a nice show..
Then we went for the survey briefing at 7.30pm instead of 7pm.
Luckily we were late.
The briefing ended at like 10pm loh!!! Rumbling stomachs...
And someone had to give a miss to a church group meeting or something..
Dinner at AMK. Fish and Chips.
I sure don't know what is.. I had been coughing for days..
Deadbeat.


8 March 2006, Thursday

Nothing much in the day..
But at night...
I had a very nice and full dinner date with Joo and Wenting at Spageddies... *smiles*
Happy me had the heavenly strawberry milkshake.. *shake shake* -tsk tsk-
It's been a long time..
And the friendship between the trio grew without us realising...

Yummy Kitchen.. is really a place, where friendship grew..
Joo was somehow introduced via Quanrong they all..
And as she moved up to level 7.... the tiger cub somehow became my maid..
My maid who's always around to witness my terrible falls in public places...
My maid who's brought me to the doc at medical centre a few times..
Really thankful for that time, the day after my accident..
I really scared you, when I was so painful and tortured, as I tried so hard to grasp for air..
And my injured muscles around my ribcage were just cramping so hard.......
I really thought I could faint onto the floor of Canteen B then.. and say goodbye to the world..

Wenting was introduced to Yummy Kitchen, of course, by her head GL, my son, Jeffery.
A very nice little girl, who never fails to offer her help in all ways..
Somehow, she had taken over, attending at the stove for quite sometime, without me knowing...
And I ended up just being a supervisor... making sure that things are in order..

Somehow... I really missed those days..
I really really missed them..
But now, I rather they would remain as happy memories..
Rather than trying to relive them in hall, without my room.. without those crowd..



This day.. and this night..
I had a great time talking to my Junkai-"jie" and my Jossie..
As my MSN private msg was saying..
This girl will not let anything bring her down..
If you asked if I felt better after confiding and talking to them?
Well.. the problem doesn't lie in me, needing to confiding and seek answers..

This night, there was someone that I couldn't contact...
Mobile phone was totally not on.....
Don't know how come..
Wild thoughts flowed in..
I didn't had a good sleep..
I had a nightmare, of this someone going missing...
And this someone ended up calling me, with her...

Waking up and crying..
I was sad over the nightmare..
I was sad over how vulnerable I was now..


9 March 2006, Friday

The morning, was really tiring, due the torturous sad night..
A phonecall in the morning, I just didn't feel like talking..

Late afternoon, I went to Music Clef for my music lesson.
Melissa said that next lesson would be about oral..
Do I need to sing?! oh no..

Went to IT show.
Crazy 3 levels, dedicated to the IT show!
Passers-by said that they merely migrated Sim Lim to Suntec.
I don't think so.
They even migrated electrical stores like Audio House, Harvey Norman, Carrefour...
Well.. Saw Jason Fu and Kangjun working there..
Somehow.. it took me quite some time to realised that it was Jason Fu.. hehe..
Reason being... well.. you go guess it.. haha

Sometimes I wondered..
If this didn't happen.. will this other thing ever happen...?


10 March 2006, Saturday

Evening, went to Zaixuan's place for mahjong.
Stupid bro. Last half of the game, zi-mo twice 5 doubles, and got all his lost chips back.
Making me the only loser.

@#!@$#@#R@$%R@#


11 March 2006, Sunday

Mahjong drained me alot.
Very tired. Very Very tired.
The whole Sunday, I rested...............


12 March 2006, Monday

As usual, I woke up..
Going through online jobs website..
Sending resumes..
But my eyes.. still tired from mahjong..
Ever since that day.. my eyes always felt strained easily...

Dinner at Ivin's.
A nice simple dinner.
It was the pleasant and enjoyable evening, with lovely exchange of praises in the air. *smiles*

Oh.. Finally saw the IceKimo that Janice was mentioning to me the other day..
It's just a small shop round the corner..
She said the ice cream there was nice.. but G doesn't think so..
Aiya.. Doesn't matter la....
Anyway, the shop didn't look as great as the image of it that I previously pictured in my mind..


13 March 2006, Tuesday

Music Clef again.
Melissa tried teaching me about the oral part of grade 3.
I NEVER KNEW I HAD TO SING FOR PIANO!!!!!!
I just can't help laughing here and there...
AND I HAVE TO CLAP?!
I just tapped to the beat..
Cos clapping reminds me of that fateful Christmas... *roll eyes*
Well that night was a wonderful night of poison-gas/element-fighting...

It was great laughing inside the studio though..
Melissa was telling me..
Recently when she thought of me...
She will naturally think of me passing my driving last week.
Cos she had been considering to get a car.
Somehow.. driving, and my name, my face appears linked to her.. hehe.. So funny...



14 March 2006, Wednesday - early hours

Tomorrow... I finally going to my hairdresser after many many many months..
I kinda got used to this hair length..
But at home, I just can't stand it, and need to tie it?
And end up I pull my ends a lot.......
Not a good habit and not a good feeling..
But it feels good to know of people who likes my hair..
The texture, the length... and not having a need for maintenance for my hair...

It's been a long time that I had played soothing music in my room..
In fact, I hardly play music at home..
Only did it in my hall....
I missed the set-up of my old room..
Given the same situation, I guess my room will be dimly lit...
Only that orangey light was on..
Sitting back against my big red furry cushion on my bed..
Doing nothing but just relax...
It'll be best with someone you love to be next to you at this moment..
so tao2 zui4 lei..............


Ok! Time for sleep!
If only I have time, then I will do some edit to the font colors..
For now.. just bear with the black black, small small words..

And lastly for FYP report last-minuters.. good luck..

Nitey bloggie... Nitey yellow bear..

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