Life.Death.

Words that fly around lately.

Life. Death.
Birth. Miscarriage.
Marriages. Divorce.

Of all. I heard of all, except divorce lately.
Seeing, hearing all these events.
I felt many other things in life are insignificant, comparatively.


Marriages.

I have many red bombs coming.
Some are just news. I just quietly see if the bomb comes to me.

14 Oct - Liew.
10 Nov - Sheralyn; 11 Nov - Renate.
24 Dec - Shiying (CAC); 29 Dec - Leimoon
20 Jan - Pei Pei
Mar? Major?
24 May - Ailin

Upcoming.. Jinyan? Who else? Pocket strained.
But it's a great news though.
Really happy for all.



Birth. Birthday.

My nephew's birthday coming up on 8 October.
Lunar's birthday is just 2 days after the mid-autumn festival. Thursday.
I swear that I gonna feed him with mooncake!!

And for those whose birthdays fall on last week.
I'm just sorry that I was too busy to even sms.
17 Sep - Happy 21st to Stephanie! A not very well-planned celebration. Hope u like it though.
21 Sep - Happy 25th to Jac and Jiehui.. And a Happy 24th to Meiling.
22 Sep - Happy 34th to Patsy... Wish Patsy zao3 sheng1 gui4 zi3...

I not sure who else I missed.
Just Happy Birthday to all bahh...



Ok.. After talking about the happy moments..
Here's the other side.


Miscarriage.

I can only say, most importantly, for now..
To the mum, take care of your health, and build up your strength.
Don't be too bothered by this.



Death.

Over the past few months.
I heard of a few sudden deaths.
But all aren't related to me.
I just don't feel any as shocked, as what.
I don't know what I should feel.

Life's unpredictable.
Maybe, if my secondary school teacher ever let me joined PE,
I may also suddenly had collapsed and died during those NAFA?
Due to heart failure?


Sudden death.

Well. To be borned with a heart defect.
Yes. It's common. But just feel somewhat incomplete. Kinda more prone?
And yes. I'm not doing anything to prevent adding stress to my heart.

Actually. All these news of sudden death, sudden heart failure...
They just more or less scary news to hear.
Even for those who are totally healthy, heart can just suddenly, refused to work.
Sometimes, I fear that in future, I would become a burden to anyone.
Whenever I fear of becoming burden, I think I would better off to be alone..


There's always two sides of the coin that I see..

Pessimistic. I will just be an introvert.
Lesser people knows people, lesser people will get affected if I suddenly just disappear.

Optimistic. I will just be like what I am now.
Everyday gonna be a happy day.
My principles...
For those who I've left traces in their life.. I make sure those traces are memorable.
I want to make sure I have positive impact.
At the very least.. When they think of me, it's always a cheerful smile..
This way.. at least, if I leave one day.. suddenly without a word..
I know I will be remembered... I will live on in all those who remember me..


I wonder how will things be, if my heart suddenly gives up on me?
Mourning and sad for a few days at my wake.
Send me off the last journey to the crematorium at Mandai.
Burning me down to ashes.
Placing me at the columbarium at Lim Chu Kang.
And I start saying Hi, and making new friends with my neighbours in Lim Chu Kang..
Perhaps starting my Yummy Kitchen in a different environment..
For a year or two. People still remember, and come to see me...
And slowly, the globe just continues to rotate...
Gradually, people forgotten my smiles.. my voice.. my looks...
And eventually forgotten about totally about me..


Yeap. News of sudden deaths.
The look on my face. It's just undescribable.
I just don't know how to react.

Living everyday, as if it is the last day.
Everyday gotta be happier than the day before.

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