nonchalent

i wonder how i did it last time.
every phase i move on to, i'm ever looking forward to meeting new ppl..
and all others just put behind..
and all the gatherings and stuffs, i'm always too busy to attend.

now what?
i treasured friends more as some stuffs happened years back..
and now, i kept making effort meeting friends, friends and more friends...
i wonder when did i ever make so many friends?
i wonder how did i do so, and keep updated with their lives?
i wonder when will i ever finish meeting up all my girl-friends?
i've been going out non stop for the past 2-3 weeks?
i still have girl-friends whom i haven't meet for ages.
so what does this have to tell?
should i just be like in the past...
be there for my girl-friends, whenever they need me?
or just be enthusiastic to meet them up?

hmm..
i'm kinda losing myself..
i have been keeping myself soo busy..
till now.. i realise... i probably didn't really had time for myself...
will i ever have time for myself?
after work, come back, will be family and baby time..
if i go out, will be with all my girl-friends...

can i ever be like before..
move on to the next phase of life nonchalently?
like how i did from sec sch to jc, and from jc to uni, yr 1 to yr2..
there just seems to be thousand of chains, that pulling me, dragging me..
or maybe i was more like my household thinking previously...
so long as can't be done, move on.
if can't find reason, move on.
stopping by to wait and search for reason will only pull you back.

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