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Wonder why the topic is so many X?
Cos it's about eX.

I really got to think hard about this.
Yah.
Let me think of those who ever held the name of susan's bf...
I only could recall one with an ex.
The rest... I was like.. the first gf?
I know what Jac's gonna say..
I always steal innocent guys' chu1 wen3...

It's either that..
Or.. they probably have ex..
Er... What's the thing about ex?
Either I couldn't care too much about those bfs..
Or I really don't see what's the problem having ex...
How much impact can that word be?

I know to some of my girl-friends.. u know who u are..
"Oh, the ex.. blah blah blah.. prettier.. or whatever"
Wah.. That's it..

Like..
What the hell?
Prettier then prettier lor..
Or.. I don't know what comment can be?


Maybe...
Up to now...
Other than the 1 or 2 jerks whom I met in very early years..
All past relationships only ended when I give up on it?
I think really very hard..
I really cannot find that word ex being a bother in my bgr so far..
I mean bf-gf-relationship.. not those others that never been official to the bf count.

erh.. somehow I call all these flings.. cos I don't know how u name such category.
But flings in my definition, guy-friends that don't want to commit a rs with me...
These are people whom I fall for..
Whom I was willing to spend my time then..
And definitely not 'no-strings-attached'
TMD.. no feelings how to fling?
It's upsetting have this feeling...
"People wants me, but yet they don't want to 'claim ownership' of me"
Do I have pricks like a porcupine?
All these people come in and out of my life..
Sometimes, will revisit my life again, when one just went out..
Like.. Recently there's these smses coming again from someone long ago...
It's so irritating.. Just get out of my life!!!


To me..
What happened in the past, is just a reference...
It's just a 'get-to-know-you-more' kinda thing..
So that you will get to understand why this person reacts this way..
Understand this was just the character of the person..
Understand what are the flaws, or deadly points.. that u won't wana step on...
Understand lor..

Maybe I'm really too engineering or what..
History, or failures are just information....
For better, and more successful designs, structures and also more preventive measures..
Is it this part of me too engineering?
That I applied to relationship as well?
Is it good? Or is it bad?? No right and wrong here, huh?

Labels: Love, Random thoughts