Acute Appendicitis - The sutures

I only saw the suture once on Monday.
Horribly longer than I expected..
They ever told me on Sunday, that the bandage was just exaggerated.
And that the scar was much smaller than the bandage.

Yesterday was Thursday.
It was the fateful day that I can remove the bandage and just let the wound be exposed..
I removed after showering..
Only to clean the wound with wet tissue, cos I fear it's still too raw..

As I didn't had a closer look during the first time I saw..
I examined the scar closely...

The more I saw it.. the uglier I felt..
The sutures are ugly.. the scar is ugly....
The end where the sutures started.. seemed to sew too much of flesh together..
A little fold at that end of the wound..
A little fold of flesh which always gave me slight pain when I sit around..
Pain.


Today is Friday.
There's this sizzling pain after I showered.
My first time showering the wound..
I wondered if I didn't removed the shower foam totally..
I dabbed dry with tissue.. and go over with wet tissue again..

Every now and then I felt pain again and again..
Sizzling pain..
I began to suspect the thread they used for suturing...
The big doctor's sidekick who is also another doctor..
Said that the thread is dissolvable.. Not required to be removed.
Is the thread that is self-dissolving that is causing this pain??
Well.. I might end up not knowing the answer..
Cos I will just bear and tolerate with the pain..
Eat more of the painkillers..
Worse come to worst.. Try to sleep that pain away..

Pain of the wound is never more painful than having an affected appendix.
So far...
Other than the affected appendix, and that terrible muscle strain from the lorry accident...
No other things had made me wake up in pain..

Pain is making me feel upset..
Not miserable..
Just kinda upset.
Like.. I will put on the strong front, so to make my mum less worry..
And also want her to stop putting restraints on me..



I'm already losing my appetite...
Losing weight cos of that too..
To think to go back to work..
I'm thinking of what food I can find in the canteen..
I'm losing my appetite...

No hor fun.. cos got seafood..
Mian Xian.. gotta ask uncle not to add the egg...
No more chicken rice... cos chicken..
No more yong tau hu.. cos I think my fave fried wanton might have prawn inside..
No more curry this and that..
Fried carrot cake black black.. have to request for eggless..
What's left for me to eat?

Maybe for lunch...
Monday I have char siew rice..
Tuesday I have mian xian no egg...
Wednesday I have sweet and sour pork rice..
Thursday I have pineapple rice..
Friday I have... duck rice?? wait a minute.. can I eat duck...?

Ok.. I just asked my mum..
She also doesn't know.. She had to ask my auntie aka god-ma..
Ok.. If worst cannot eat duck... I eat guotiao soup with fishball lor..

Hurrrr...
Even kaya also cannot eat cos of egg.......
Imagine my food is so simple, but they all include eggs..
Like my breakfast at work...?
Fried carrot cake black black... got egg..
French toast - bread with a super thick coating of egg...
Bun or white bread with kaya and butter.. my favourite..
I can't believe it!!
I hate what I'm going through!!!!!!!!!!
I need to eat eggs to LIVE!!!!!!!!
For goodness sake... EGGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Labels: Pain, Rantings, Sick, Upset