Feeling Unreasonable

Days of 'imprisonment' at home...
How long did you last stay at home and not even step out of your house at all?
Since Monday last week, I've been home from hospital.
I have yet walked out of this block..
The furthest I went, was just to downstairs, the lift area.
Once. That's all.

Staying at home, making me bored.
Facing my nephew, I beginning to feel like him.. UNREASONABLE..

To anyone and everyone...
I'm screaming for attention.
I'm sorry if I am to snap over the most insignificant details...
I'm sorry if I am behaving like.. I don't know what..
I'm not balanced at the moment.
And no outlet.
And not that I don't want to find anyone to go out.
But given my condition..
When pain has returned.. plus blowing big winds and overcast outside this afternoon..
I even refused to go out to meet Jossie.
Not lazy.. Not whatever..
But it's the harsh weather and the pain..
Had I over-laughed? or over-strained while taking care of the baby?
I wonder if mc garnered me any rest at home..
When I still have to take care of the little one....

I'm complaining. Complaining about every other thing..
So unusual..
I'm... just too bored, and starting to find fault in every other thing except myself.
Feeling so unreasonable, and so cannot tahan myself.
I need to get a breather.
But how I know when the pain will just strike?
And as if it isn't torturous enough..
Menstrual cramps just have to add on to it..

Susie in pain, makes her a grumpy old lady.

Labels: Pain, Rantings, Sick