Merry Christmas!!!

Merry Christmas!!!!


It's Christmas' eve..

And this year.. I felt it's the lousiest of all..
Totally not caught up by the Christmas spirits..
Probably cos still focusing at health recovery, than any other things..

I woke up at 5+ am today.
Don't know do what. Catch flies perhaps.
Sending a good morning sms and well wishes for Christmas..
Earned me an unexpected invitation to a Christmas party.


Now it left me wondering if I should go.
Will they party overnight?
As much as I hope for getting into Christmas mood, which I totally don't have at the moment...
I don't know if I should go to a party, where I only know zk only..
Am I on a social butterfly mode today, or am I a moth that want to stay quiet at a place..
And just the Christmas die off as I stay put and die off as a moth too?

Well.. I am really not at all affected by Christmas spirits..
That I totally don't understand what's the point of celebrations..
I just hate the fact that the streets is so crowded with people,
Such that I can't go out and shop and walk around..


Sounded sad?
Nah..

It's been months since I last went out with zk..
Ever since we were back as friends again..

Probably people might think that, I think too much.
But, in actual fact, many a time,
It's not about thinking too much..
It's about too many history evidents that I treat others as friends only..
Doesn't mean that they do so..
People, that close to me, are either super buddy buddy, that treat me like a guy..
Or they are just attracted to me in certain ways..
Sixth sense.

Those that aren't interested, I will also know one lah..
Of course, there are conversations and stuffs to judge..
Unlike one 'best friend' of mine, best friend as acclaimed by many other people around me then..
Yeap, same primary, same secondary, all the way up to NTU.
Doesn't mean I will react the same way..
I'm not like her, always assuming she's the most attractive, and hottest, most sought-after..
Little does she know that some things she does..
The words get around, even after so long...
Nothing glamourous. Just wild moments.


Whatever..
All and all..
Today, it voices down to..
Should I go, or should I not?

Or maybe not? sighz

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