Travel Log: The word 'Dear' [History]

This word was a word that I hated people calling me.
Cos when my ex call me that years back..
That meant he was treating me exceptionally nice.. and wanting to ask for a favour..
Well.. That's my impression from then.
And now.. he probably still call me dear over msn... ha.. but well.. blah blah blah

To that ex..
If you know who you are...
DoN'T ARGUE with ME UPON THIS.


Till some time later, there's another senior that irritate and scare me..
He kept calling me dear.. especially he is well-knowned for his 'hum-sup-ness'..
*shudders with fear and disgust*


And then..
There's this ex that call me deardear..
It was irritating at first..
By starting off to call me his mistress, and trying to relate me to him..
I was more of... couldn't be bothered at first..
But overtime, I just got used to be called deardear and got the relationship started somehow.
And the DDILY that came out of my drunk mouth the day after my 19th birthday...
It was all so funny.
But ended off.. not so funny.. kind of blank in my mind now...
Perhaps it was just never meant to be..
My request for a cool off period.. ended to be infinite timeline...

Which in turn proves about this theory in my head..
When 2 separate lines in space meet..
If they decided not to go in the same direction..
They will move on, and never cross the path again.
Cos they are lines, not curves..
For some other lines, their gradient never even allow them to meet at all..
Haha.. so mathematical, right?
I often thought I should become a maths teacher.


Sometimes,
My girlfriends will call me dear..
Occasionally my kids will do so..
My kids will most prob call me shifu, mum.. or just my name.

One old forgottened 'son' of mine..
I remembered that I was too used to him calling me "Mother"...
Till one day, he called and asked for Susan..
I thought who siah.. haha.

Another old forgottened 'son'..
Whom I often want to disown cos he's just super reckless in driving..
And treat as though everything as nothing..
Till now, I'm not too sure if we bump into each other in public..
Will he still shout and call me "MUMMY"...
That will be so embarassing....


And now...
My colleagues start to call me dear over emails..
Especially Irene..
And I'm starting to feel that she's really similar to Boss le..
Oh yah..
My boss will reply my mails with Dearie.. this this this..
Dearie.. haha.
Was uncomfortable at first..
But oh well.. I'm used to it. haha.


That's not very good..
This is a pampering feeling that I cannot do without..
Being the youngest in the family..
I admit. I'm a spoilt brat.
Things given to me, are always the best.
People around me, adores me.
There are things, that I agree, that I will not get..
But there are also things, I know I can get it.
I'll go all out for it.
And it's just challenging, if things are more difficult..
Oh well.. I'm confident of my own judgement.

Will not fight for war without confidence..
(Direct translation from: bu2 hui4 da3 mei2 ba3 wo4 de zhan4)



So.
The word "Dear" is something that still eats into my uncomfort zone.
But if that guy isn't hum-sup.. or the person who say it is a girl...
Overtime, I will just accept and being called that way..



I'm officially alone in States now.

People, I will be checking my apartment mailbox later..
To see if Clarice's 25% discount mailer for Coach has reached us.
And confirm with you babes if the discount is transferrable.

25% discount lei!
This is good enough to tempt me to get myself a bag...
On top of the bag that my love is sponsoring me.. haha..


Love you, all my babes and kids back in SG.


Love you, my love..
Hope it reaches you in the jungle. haha.

Labels: Me, Random thoughts, USA